IT"S A BOY (that's right...all caps) !!!!

We had an ultra sound done today and the results are in, we are having a baby boy. It was a very unique experience as Liv laid there and the technician showed us all the parts of our baby. She let me tap on Liv's belly and you could see on the monitor where I was tapping, then our little boy would respond by kicking or squirming. We saw his hands, his arms, his feet, his heart, his brain. We could see his face and watched him open and close his mouth. I know the wonders of human development are not new, but they are to me, so I will revel in all the glory that is my developing son. He is amazing. This whole plan is amazing. The fact they our Heavenly Father permits us to take part in the process of bringing his children into this terrestrial world opens my eyes to the glory and great completeness of His plan of happiness. Today it became real to me. I've been sparked with an excitement that I'm sure is annoying to other people. I want to tell everyone that we are having a boy. Boys are born every minute of every day all over the world, mine is nothing new..... but it is to me, and I will glory in this excitement to the fullest degree possible.

I know everyone thinks their wife is beautiful, but mine really is. Look at her. 5 months pregnant and she is glowing with womanhood. She is working very hard at eating well for the baby and she makes sure she gets plenty of exercise. She's been doing a personal yoga practice that focuses on poses for mothers to be. She hasn't found a place or studio that she feels passionate about practicing with, so she marches forward on her own perusing the things that make her happy. Liv is working full time at a pre-school working with the infants. She loves and hates her job every day but we both think that after taking care of 5 babies at a time, one will be a cake walk. I know that there are a life time of stresses ahead of us but for right now, in this moment, I want to cherish the excitement we feel. I want to bottle it and store it away in the cupboar d. I would open it up when the hard times. I would open it up when my priorities are not in harmony with our values. I would open it up when we question why we even had children. For now I will enjoy the excitement and anticipation. I will bask in my wife's beauty. I will live this moment like it won't last, because it wont. One of the things I love about Liv is how she can live in the moment, good or bad, she faces what is present and lives it. The adventure before us is awesome, and I'm glad Liv and I are together as we face it. I know have two "loves of my life" Liv and our new baby boy.

19 week bump

12 weeks in an uncharted land

Let me just for a moment talk about how courageous my wife is. Within the first 48 hours of being married to me she survived an almost-fatal, wintry, driving escapade where my truck spun into a junk show on ice, and she faced off toe to toe with a grizzly bear. You would think after that she would be leery of following me anywhere. But she is not so easily stunned. When I told here I got a job in Mesa all she said was "I go where you." Really? After all that I have put her though in our short time together? She still says "I go where you go." Where does she get this kind of courage? This is her moments before facing off with one of Yellowstone's finest... grizzly bears.



So her she is 12 months pregnant in a strange place away from every thing that is familiar. It is hard for both of us at times. Liv seem to be doing well with the pregnancy, no morning sickness or nausea. Occasionally she'll need some food or to sit down, but she seems to be doing well. I really thing she is a brave person. That's what I've learned about her recently. While soft and tender, she is very brave. Taking on this task of having a baby away from family and friends is difficult, but she is tackling it well. Sometimes it gets to be too much and she'll have a breakdown, sometimes I have a breakdown. We're trying not to breakdown at the same time.

objective/purpose

I am not a blogger. I do like to write, or at least I used to. From 2003 to 2006 I kept journals. An in depth look at past entries reveals that I mostly enjoyed documenting new adventures and travels. Trips were recorded with good detail and typically followed by an emotional connection to the experience. Ideas that were new and revolutionary to me at the time were recorded like they were modern revelation. I have found it difficult to continue with my typical journal entries. I realize that these scribbles were simply the result of a boy in his early twenties discovering life, and that they were not so different from any other wonder-lusting, Muir-loving, middle-class-vagabond, baby-boomer-offspring. My love for writing has been encompassed in the discovery of adventure. I feel the the documentation of discovering adventure has been thoroughly covered in my past writings. I have found a new passion.

This is a blog about my wife. In the year that we have been married I have grown to love my wife more than when I married her. While this new revelation my be cliche or ordinary to others, it is new and unique to me. This new kind of emotion is what forces me to this keyboard. I have heard that love can grow, but I have never experienced it until now.

Liv and I are expecting our first child. As I watch her take on this new, difficult, selfless challenge, it makes me love her more. All that Liv has done for me has created a new emotion that needs an outlet. This blog will follow the process of my lovely wife and our unborn child. Along the way I will write about what makes her great, and why I love her.